Friday, October 1, 2010

NAMELESS

Nameless is called Nameless, because he is as such. When Nameless was born, it had been the hottest September in Lowetown’s history. His mother and myself, we had gotten together three years prior, and decided around Christmas one year to try and extend the family.

We hadn’t much need for a child before. We were happy. I would come home after work; my wife would be prepared for my arrival, waiting for me at the door as I had expected her to be. Food would be ready, somethin’ simple like chicken with stuffin’ or chicken with gravy, or chicken livers with roast chicken. The living room would be cozy and my big screen TV with its paper hardwood finish turned to my favorite channel. Life was good then. We rarely mentioned having kids, as both of us found pleasure in our simple lifestyle – the reservation from the idiots roaming around in the world, caught up in some preprogrammed idea that it was better to grow old with kids who went to college, and then their kids running around. It just wasn’t important to me and my sweetheart. And then one winter, when it was cold outside, and snow covered the roads so I wasn’t forced to work, a few days after New Years, before the Christmas tree was taken down and everyone still felt festive, my wife and I had a few drinks and made the rash decision to try and have a child. A mistake that would change everything, forever, on every level.

Nameless came into this world silent and pale pink, blue and green veins around his temples, and with a look of apathy. A quiet burden. He had no teeth, and looked around the hospital room once or twice, then closed his eyes. The doctors poked and prodded at him, and he made sounds, but never cried.

My wife had spent nineteen hours in labor, and we had refused to have that ceasar section – or whatever it was called – for most of the time. But they said she was growing too swollen, or her p-thingy was detached or somethin, but still, natural is better, no need for all this new technology interfering with what people have done for hundred of thousands of years. Anyway, Nameless had caused some complication in my sweetheart, and after an entire day of struggling, we agreed to the doctor’s orders. Nameless came into my world, seven pounds of human, but when he arrived, he took my baby’s life.

She lied there, struggling after they took him from‘er stomach. Sweat was beading up around her hairline, dark sunken circles dragged her eyes deep in to her pretty face that once held so much life. She lied there for a moment more, looked away from that kid of ours, let out a sigh, closed her eyes and she was gone. My sweetie was a beautiful woman, who pushed and pushed for a day, and at the end, this little thing took my baby’s life.

My wife and I didn’t need all these flashy things that the world threw into peoples lives, besides my television of course. We were intelligent, but there isn’t much need for too much knowledge, it just’ll make ya crazy in the end. She was a darling though, and I always remember what she said in May, right before she had the baby. “My lovey, we don’t have to name this thing inside me right? I think if you name somethin’, it just dies. Look at our gold fish and that cat we had.”

Don’t get me wrong, we weren’t bad at keepin’ things alive, I mean, I still got this child around… And so we joked around the idea, but never gave it any more serious thought. When my baby left to go the heavens and meet our maker, I decided to leave the child without a name, but the birth certificate demanded some sort of way to identify him, so I wrote in “nameless.” They capitalized the N by them damn selves.

Nameless has been around for nineteen years now. I can’t say I love him; he took away the thing I cherish the most, what I would consider the only thing I could love, my person. I guess he ain’t that bad. He does some cool things every once in a while, but is truly more of a burden than a blessing. He is a lot like me, always keeping to himself, not associating with the nimrods, the materialistic and the artsy.

But I cannot understand him, like he has some dream beyond this world. He’s always talking about some zen chinky nonsense, somethin’ those japs and gooks like. Nameless stays quiet, sits in his room a lot and reads stuff. Stuff like enlightening the brain or what not, philosophy and magic dragons or something. I wish he’d go play a video game, or sports or something. Watch TV at least. But instead, he sits around, reading those damn books, dreaming about a world where people think instead of work and live. Hippie nonsense. Nameless’s Hippie Nonsense.

Monday, September 6, 2010

the motions


put, stay
Originally uploaded by faultyplans
i am,
i am your eatery,
your Jones's just bought food processor,
with all the nooks and crannies.
For real, face it.
Without me, there is no whole.
There is just this girl running here,
this boy running there.

You all don't seem to look at the larger picture,
and even i am guilty of this...
Without these little nuts and bolts,
there is no working machine.

In my industry,
the hospitality/food one,
people come in to enjoy some regularly established part of their day,
breakfast/lunch/dinner/supper.

But people lose the idea of all of this,
out of sight, out of mind.

But really y'all,
step back and realize there is.
There is some dude that is slaving over a hot grill,
and he might even have a name.

And there that dude sits all night,
his life,
making you a medium well burger that isn't too bloody.

See this and hear me say,
i am the boy that cleans for you.
I am the one that allows you to sit at some table and,
without care or trepidation,
eat a meal that was so thoughtlessly prepared for you.

That burger you sit and eat,
it was prepared hours earlier,
after Ben was Benjamin,
but much before you had a face.
This burger is for you, and we hope it is done well,
but realize please,

you Mam, Sir, Sir, or Bro,
you're just another thing,
living and operating on some other scale,
different than mine.

My level,
delving into dirty dishes and the philosophy of a busboy.
How the bustub is placed, or where a dish goes.

Your level,
where is the family,
is Steve here yet, can he find a parking spot,
where is the restroom?

We are all just sole, please realize,
worrying about those problems surrounding us,
and perhaps those we surround.
And in the greater sceme of things don't be so annoyed.

We are all just human,
and we make those common errors.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

OC Sunset


OC Sunset
Originally uploaded by faultyplans
the high waters are rising,
and the fluid body brings with it only the darkest of all evils,
the blood of the money god and its demon posse
with sabres of sin slashing through all space.

from the bottom of the sea rising and spreading.
the christians aren't looking at it this way,
but who can miss the beast,
when it knocks knock knocks on you door.

listen to it!
we give up the precious minutes to strive,
only toward the belly of the beast.
the mid eastern mind,
holding and seizing all on which the beast trods
the protectors of the demigod's feet.
lift and downstep, lift and repeat.
and with every movement, slaying all those who stand too near.

as the crud rises from the darkest waters,
red banks open new investment opportunities
initial public offerings to pay homage.
and all the time, lure in children like predators with candy pops,
given to them by the hands of apathetic asian ghosts.

its wrath coming down from the water in the sky,
super saturated rain drops carrying sin.
the infected blood water licked by gluttony itself.

keep ignoring the knocks on the door,
and death will surely follow.
that is survival one-o-one.
but open that door, ride the roller-coaster
and allow the money god to wrap its black blood,
tight around your neck.
and death will surely follow.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

never to be finished


DSC01047
Originally uploaded by faultyplans
i see you girl.
i want you girl.
your dirty blonde brown.
it's soft,
you already know,
but i want to tell you anyway.

when i see you,
and your recent imperfections,
i feel like that beauty of yours,
decided to give me a handicap,
a headstart.

NOW, i can have you.
i'm not that great to begin with.
as for theory and rhetoric go,
i got you beat, bitch.

but as far as real life,
that shit that matters for survival,
i am in awe of your strut and swagger.

women feel the potential for motherhood,
even before there is a soul in that womb,
but the men,
us men,
we don't get it until that baby screams for life.

until that mark made you human,
there was no chance,
there was no feeling of hope.
and now there is the idea of us.
*UNREVISED/UNFINISHED*

Saturday, March 6, 2010

authority complex

i had a love of my life

she was five foot five

black hair and brown eyes.


a touch of american blue

and jovial chinese red

with a dash of my white

made her an abc delight

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

practice

for the life of me, i've sat here, unable to write

write. right? wrong. type.

for the life of me, i've sat here for three long months

barking orders at child stars, 

unable to initiate the sequence of digit movements that starts a digital movement.


i've two muses, neither want a thing to do with me.

now my cave, my long hallway that housed six heads and five beds,

and now my fucking cave unequivocally blocks this transient flow.


i could type angry insults, but the world is already convoluted.

i could draw bobbing heads and waving arms as they extend 

from a lustful mara.

i could, but i won't. surely will not.


these prose are shallow.

like the nurse who swore to her code of helping those in need,

then denying a boy a band aid because the maternity ward's bandages are too small.

the cut was caused by a pin prick.


my muse, a black hair neophyte pup that barks,

went and started speaking a language too sino for i.

our relationship is like the jews and jesus,

she just leaves me hanging. 


my muse, long haired and bright,

bought herself a hundred dollar habit and can't seem to kick

the opiates.

the best part being, her anti-being is the chinese oo-long 


now, here i am...

writing. writing. typing this shit...

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

quick-witted dick

i want to sit and type out my excitement! 

i wish to dissect the world and tell people of the wonders i have learned

my internal teacher, my spirit guide.


i wish to stand on my foot high soap box and elaborate on the zen,

the zen the classical world has romantically abolished.

i want to explain the balance of things,

to the convoluted persons bouncing their heads off inanimate objects,

rebounding to bounce and rebound to bounce.


bouncing from brick walls and red tin roofs.

those tiny pinheads ping-ponging across 

television screens and off radio air-waves. 


i wish to sit down now.


due to the empirical overload, zen is outdated and fated.

fated to die off as those who bounce all too well forget. 

they forget of the the intangibility this world really holds on to.


what was once about expansion and progression of thought,

has become expansion and progression of material wealth.

it has become not about how one transcended from one's expedition through a wailing fjord

it has become about how one descended from one's ford expedition without wailing.


those who bounce off the intangible words towards immediate pleasure,

eventually bounce into a state of apathy and stagnant tangibility.


for those convoluted bouncing balls,

i become pretentious and quick-witted.


for those oppressing forces that bounce in to life,

i become rounded and repellant having learnt that things bounce out just as they bounce in. 


this mass appeal with immediate pleasure,

reminds me of the affliction of addiction.

the romantic idea of immediate orgasmic gratification

doesn't sound romantic when it is translated as,

the black tar hypodermic needle head puncturing a vein.


instant orgasmic pleasure.

buy the car! you need it.

buy the stereo, you'll enjoy it!

listen to the words without question, it'll be easier!